These 2 drawings are depictions of my complex PTSD memories. One of them has many errors so it's incomplete. Sorry about my broken English but I really want to tell the story that I kept in the bottom of my heart.
I'm a young female in my 20s having complex PTSD & depression for nearly 10 years. The every day I stay in China will reminding me I was beaten, tied up and imprisoned at my age 13 in a boot camp aimed for treating so-called "Internet Addiction" , it was a part of a mental hospital (asylum) named Baiyun mental hospital(白云心理医院) located in Guangzhou city. Now my horrifying memories are overflown.
A range of children and adults from 10 to 30s been kidnapped into the mental asylum, forced to follow the military training schedule given by the camp: Queue training in the morning, physical training in the afternoon, such as push-ups, sit-ups, squats 500 times for each; Crouch-walking, jogging for 10 laps around the playground etc. from 6 am to 6 pm, 8pm was the time for review meeting of the day.
We had to sing 3 Chinese patriot songs before eating. Sometimes if the coaches(PLA veterans worked in camp) were cranky, they blew whistle at 12am- 2am in the morning called for emergency assembly, then commanded us to practice physical exercises, for example: 500 push-ups+ 500 squats+ shuttle crouch-walking for 200 times.
If I disobeyed the coaches, nurses, doctors and volunteers these in charge of the boot camp I would ended up been beaten, dragged to a small room with camera surveillance, all limbs tied up on a metal bed frame without mattress.
I had been dragged to the room 5 times during the 1 yr of "treatment" , each time I was constrained for 24 hours in 3 days. My metal bed frame was put along one side with some teenage boys already been constrained for more than a month, one had intellectual disability. I was refusing to eat at the first time arrived in the room, they plugged a tube into my nose all the way down to my food track, poured porridge inside. No kid could endure this acute, disgusting feeling. Eventually I gave up, succumbed to them.
We must took our medicines everyday and they were expensive. The doctors prescribed 15 tablets of unknown medications for me, 3 times a day.
Suicides was common among the young people in the camp, some tried to drink cleaning chemicals, some bumped onto walls, but we couldn't find any sharp tools those had been confiscated.
A 10 years old boy smashed the window in the toilet of surveillance room, meanwhile he already was in bondage for 3 days. He intended to slice his wrist, but soon the staffs found out, controlled him. Many young people witnessed blood and glass fragments were everywhere. He was sent to another hospital via ambulance. The other time an ambulance came was a coach kicked a girl's stomach, the girl screamed and fainted.
Parents were permitted to visit the kids fortnightly. We were ordered to prepare a performance of singing or straight plays relevant to the theme of filial piety. Crying kids and whistle blowers must be taken to the surveillance room, constrained and let their parents leave.
After 3 months in there I had a chance to go on a 'parole', it meant I was allowed to return home for a month. Once my parents were not satisfied with the "refomed me" they could give a call to the boot camp, soon the coaches would bring ropes to kidnap me back to there again. I attempted several times of suicide within that month, so the coaches arrived with ropes prepared. I was not surprised, whereas in despair.
Half year later they finally released me, nether my severe depression nor "Internet Addiction" was cured. The first thing I did was purchasing 5 paper cutters hide under my pillow. I had nights and nights of nightmares, became scared to hospitals and schools as well. 4 years later my family immigrated to Australia, I was diagnosed with complex PTSD, severe depression and anxiety in Sydney.
My motive for writing this memoir was the infamous event at the end of last year went viral on Chinese internet, now completely forgotten by China as coronavirus outbreak occurred, it was called the "Yuzhang Academy (豫章书院) incident" , an illegal correctional school where many parents sent their naughty kids in hope to reform them. The workers in the academy punished the kids with whips and metal rulers, and locked some of these young people in a cell as the result of their noncompliance.
The incident also linked to another earlier case in 2009, a doctor named Yang Yongxin (杨永信) claimed he could cure children's addiction to the Internet, he utilised electrical shocks, illegal imprisonment, and cult-like brain wash on the young people who were sent to his boot camp which belonged to a mental hospital in Linyi, Shandong province of China. The young people's parents were participating and assisting Yang Yongxin's process of the treatments, mostly with no regrets afterwards.
"Former Students Accuse Internet Addiction School of Abuse Teenager whose mother tricked him into going says corporal punishment was common practice." https://www.sixthtone.com/news/1001096/former-students-accuse-internet-addiction-school-of-abuse
“A Chinese teenager’s death is exposing the horrors of internet addiction bootcamps” https://qz.com/1054752/chinese-internet-addiction-bootcamps-the-death-of-teenage-exposes-the-brutality-of-treatment-facilities/amp/
Both Yang Yongxin and the founder of Yuzhang Shu Yuan correctional school never got caught, living in freedom till nowadays. The government shut down Yuzhang Academy however still allowing the founders of "Internet Addiction" correctional boot camps and academies open new ones, operate in exactly the same mode. These boot camps and academies remain running as intact as they used to be.
Not only that, Baiyun mental health hospital is still running whether the place and its staffs had created my worst nightmares, caused my 9 years of PTSD. The agony will keep going on and on even after the place closed, even at the end of my entire life.
P. S. I was never diagnosed with Internet addiction outside of that Baiyun mental health hospital where held the boot camp. Internet Addiction was never officially acknowledged by any professionals, medical practitioners worldwide or WHO. Some malicious Chinese doctors associated with these illegal correctional boot camps, academies fabricated the whole thing to make massive profits.
Internet can't be physically addictive to human body. Internet is just a tool people use it on daily basis to access more information. It's like saying money is a drug, the more you have them they will destroy your health, or, you are addicted to money because you use them every day.
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